for paigey

when you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, its the hardest thing you could ever go throu. and no matter how much time has passed, it never actually goes away. you may think youre getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest, you fall apart, for the hundredth time, and you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. you love this person with all your heart, even though you know you shouldn't, they hurt you worse than youve ever been hurt, they stold your happiness. but yet, you still want them. other people come along and give you chances to move on, and in my case i couldn't be more happy. but in your case you can't, or dont want to. it upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promised you never would, and even if they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours. on top of that, your terrified, terrified of getting hurt again, like me. but its not like it matters anyway right? at the end of the day youre still thinking about the person who has left you completely broken, you dont want to miss them anymore, you dont want to love them anymore, but you know you always will.

just because i know how you feel love, i'm so very glad that i dont feel like this anymore. dylan has made me so happy, and yaaah i am terrified of getting hurt, and i am begging that that doesnt happen. on my knees begging, because i dont want to go through that all over again. So dylan when you read this, yes, i am going to do everything in my power to keep up alive, like the fire in paiges heart for michael, still lit.

<3

( I feel for you babe, if you ever wanna talk }