all my wishes

What doesn't kill you makes you wish you were dead, what doesn't kill you makes you jump at the slightest noise, what doesn't kill you makes you an alcoholic and an impossiple person to be with, what doesn't kill you makes you hide in the corner and draw shapes that no one can see.

something you will never understand

I can't say why, but I wish you wouldn't go behind my back, I wish you wouldn't lie and I wish you wouldn't break promises. I wish there was something I could do to make you trust me and I wish there was something I could do to make you understand. I can't figure out what is was that I did to make you this way, and I hope it goes away.
You say, "We need to take a break I think Beth." and for some strange reason I remember you saying last time that, "...breaks do nothing Beth, all they accomplish is breaking the other persons heart." And it is also strange that I distinctly remember you saying you never wanted to break my heart. I never did fuck all wrong Trey. Never did I do anything wrong. You are the one who texted my ex boyfriend not thinking that I was telling you the truth. & no sir, I do not have a thing with another boy.

Thank you for trusting me.