" your body rocks a rhythm , he beats your drum hard '

1. you make me happy
2. you make me smile
3. you make me laugh
4. you are gorgeous
5. you are silly & and so funny
6. you are my muse
7. you are so good for me
8. you are so good to me
9. you make me feel safe
10. you make me want to dance
11. its always been so easy
12. you make me feel good, nuff said
13. you make me miss you
14. I can be a little kid around you
15. now get back from Mexico ;)

someone who will hug me tight when i'm down, someone who will beat up the guys that hurt me, someone who knows every single detail about me. someone who makes me laugh until i cry, someone who i can be myself with; only myself. someone who won't cause so much fucking drama, someone who i might eventually fall in l o v e with .

& someone who will eventually love me backk

& i don't trust anyone who doesn't smile

"The first time someone shows you who they are, believe them."

-Maya Angelou

lets be honest , if you were a facebook status ; i'd like you

more feelings. i love the feeling i get when your fingers are intertwined with yours, my head on your chest listening to you ever so fast heart beat. that is something i'm not giving up.

i'm here, i care. i don't care if you need to stay up all night crying, i will stay with you. If you need medication, again, go ahead and take it - i will still care about you through and after that, as well. If you don't need the medication, i'll still care. There is nothing you could ever do to love my trust, faith, hope & care for you. I will try my best to protect you, and even after it is we may be done, i will still care. I am stronger than depression and am braver than loneliness and nothing you could do is going to exhaust me.

you told me you were going to care, so please don't make me fall for that before i fall to pieces

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

love is friendship set on fireeee

the way you make me feel is like;

smelling fresh rain, or laying in the back of a truck under a blanket, watching the stars. or returning back home from a long trip of just driving with no destination in the summer. It's like the feeling you get when you get an A on your report card and your parents tell you how proud they are. Or when you hear your family laughs together, or the sound of the wind rushing through a tunnel when you drive with the windows down. It's like when you're outside on a hot summer day and you have a cold glass of water or when you talk to an old friend after a month or two, yet the two of you are still as close as ever.

It's like the feeling you get when you hear your favorite childhood song on the radio for the first time in years, you turn it up and if feels so good, you feel so alive. Or just lying in a cold sleeping bag in a tent, listening to the rain fall. It's the way your heart stops and you can't breathe during your first true kiss, or how your body feels when you take off in an airplane for the first time. Or when you drive around in the front seat of a car that belongs to the boy you really, really like and even though you should feel scared beyond control because he's driving so fast & stupid, ye you feel so safe and alive.

yaaah, that feeling.

the way you make me feel, feels good to me.



get out .

i w a n t y o u o u t o f m y l i f e , & stay out of my things , including my head .
why can't you see that ?

small amount of h a p p y you make me

( what on earth did I think about all the time before you ? }

 

you know that feeling you get when you look at someone straight in the eyes and withought saying anything you know everything they are saying and feeling? You know that feeling you get when you're hugging him so tight and you feel so safe that you don't ever want to let go? You know that feeling when you're laying down together and stare at the ceiling, both completely silent- and as you both turn, your faces coincidentally clance into one another's, only to find a smile painted across both of them? You know that feeling when you care about someone so much it sometimes makes you want to cry out of joy of being scared?

Well those feelings- all of those feelings - I feel because of you.

let the rain fall .

note to self :
Remember that you have someone that makes you smile.
because a smile is a curve that sets everything straight.

wow , your such an allstar .

a strangled smile fell from my face. I just want to be okay for you again, not that i really ever was. but just when i try to block you out, and think i've finally succeeded , here you come , allstar , destroying thes feelings i have for someone who matters. I try to forget about everything you say or don't say, take it in when i have to , then wash my mind clear like the ocean washes away the sandcastles on the beach. forget it all once it is over , because that is what i know is right for me . you have to ask questions , so i give you the answers , for the most part , only to be questioned further about whether that is the truth or not . If you don't find the need to believe me in the first place , dont bother asking me questions , or stating an opinion that i clearly couldnt care less about . you make me feel like a bag of shit , why can't you just see that ? " I hate girls . I don't know why I had four." Can you double take that to make it sound good, worthy of your time ? So for you to be telling me i've fucked up in the past is a waste of breath , because at this point I really am caring what you have to say .

For now i ' m going to let my hair down and be trasparent for awhile, I mean, after all isn't that what you want ?

i'm finally falling to the bottom of the end .

are we ever going to live before we die?

why can't I forgive or forget as much as I think? forget the lonely days stuck in my mind. please let your guard down so i can figure out whether your human after all. honesty is a hard attribute to find when we all want it to seem like we've got it all figured out. I'll be the first and will always be the first to admit that i don't have all the answers, but sometimes you've got to pretend; like i do. but we've all got the power to believe [& I know that i'm not your dream but i hope you always believe in me}

Please, if you wouldn't mind putting me, the broken, busted, missing-pieces, destroyed and guilt filled puzzle back together.

*amiloudandclearorarewejustbreakingup?*

unexpected is always so much better

*hekissedmeforthefirsttime&iwonderedwhyihadwaitedsolong*

you think your so fucking tough ? sorry to break it to yaaah , but ; your not so stfu .

kaaaaaaaiii sweet .

as i stare at this blank page, i see my life. boring, plain, & ready to be written on. but in my my case, i'm ready to be re-written. i need to find a pen, and make something permanent instead of writting in pencil & having to erase & scratch out things that i don't want.

i know that you can't stand to see me like this, or atleast that is what you have said; but the thing is , i can't find myself.

i guess you can't have your cake and eat it too .

does it bother you at all that I cry myself to sleep? that i just want to lose it, risk it all?

do you even care?
cause when you go about 'makingtherightdecision' like this, i'm pretty sure it's the right decision for you, not me.

when pigs fly (:

i don't have much to say , other than there always

has to be a rainbow in the dark, & you just happen to

be mine, all mine... i hope.

pinch me , for i must be dreaming ..

& my love for you is blind, cause i love you more than you'll ever know, but when it dies , i ' ll sit with you in the ashes & feel alone. & i'll be waiting there everytime you fall , because i know that inside yor hurting but i also know that pain is part of learning who you are , so here i am waiting, watching us as we come undone , because when everything falls down , i hope that i see you waiting atop that mountain lending me a hand back up .

[ *& the daylight is craving the sunshine of your smile }